Monday, February 11, 2013

Inspiration

One of my new LIO friends (hi Donna!) said something today... she said "you inspire me". My IMMEDIATE reaction... "(looking around to see who she is talking too...) I'm sorry... me?????"

This makes me smile, because, heh... someone thinks I am inspiring... but it also makes me want to strive to BE inspiring. Because when I hear things like that, my gut reaction is... don't look at me to be inspiring... I'm a fraud... I lost 65 lbs over 10 years ago... and then found them... PLUS their best 10 lbs friends and have kept them around for far too long now.

You see, I'll exercise and one of two things will happen:
  1. I will lose weight and then promptly find it again like some sort of twisted game of hide and seek; or,
  2. I MAINTAIN my weight, because at 8:30 pm, when the kids go to sleep, so does any semblance of good eating I have had all day.
With the later, it isn't because I am pigging out on chips and cake (ok... maybe sometimes, but not normally); but instead, it is the cheese and crackers, the popcorn with seasoning, the exttra fruit I feel NEEDS to be eaten... as some sort of "reward" for surviving yet another day (note, 8:30 is also when I am officially off the clock. Except for making dear son's lunch, I have successfully coped through the day - which started at 6:15am and didn't stop until this point when said son is tucked into bed). Most of the time, I am not even hungry... I just go for the food because, well, it is more of a habit than anything else. Sidenote - maybe I should also blog about NOT doing this for the next 21 days... breaking the cycle as it were.

I have to keep reminding myself that as much as I am (re)forming my habit of exercising, I must also work on breaking my habit of nighttime eating. Any ideas???

On running news, I was back in the gym at lunch today after slacking on my running over the weekend. Because I missed a run this past weekend, and because I also know that with Madie's birthday celebrations this weekend I won't be runing then either, I am planning 4 lunchtime runs this week. One down (and 3.14kms up), Three to go. :)

Tomorrow, I move on to Week 5 and my three 5 minute runs with 3 minute walks in between. I am kinda looking forward to it. :)
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Kataroo said...

I think you need to pat yourself on your back :) your doing great! As far as the night eating, I struggle with that too. I find i want a COMFORT snack at bedtime...to break the night eating I will go watch TV in bed, away from the kitchen, will paint my nails, drink tea ( i buy special treat teas)...but given that I exercise a lot I also GET HUNGRY at night...so if I am hungry (not bored) I will have a snack...greek yogourt with some granola topping, or my fav OATMEAL with PB :) I figure a snack like that stops the grumble in my tummy, and the mental focus on food, and is much healthier then a bag of chips, bag of choc chips, etc... you will find what works for you.

February 12, 2013 at 4:28 AM

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